Life


Right now, I am school.

My life is on hold so I can get a Master’s degree.

I live in a city county that revolves around the University.  The only people I know are those in my department.  The only place I go is campus.  When I wake up in the morning, the first thought I have it what I have left to read.

I am a ball of stress.

Honestly, I’m getting tired of it.

I’m tired of having a sore jaw in the mornings from clenching all night.  I’m tired of not having time to talk to my friends and family in California because I have to read.  I’m tired of sitting on my butt, reading for hours on end and feeling like I’m still not doing enough.

Yesterday was a terrible day.  Aside from the immense amount of work I had to do.  I was frustrated with my program, and I was frustrated with myself.  I’m tired of complaints.  At this point, I just want to be done.

I’m not sure what needs to change.  Do I need to just suck it up and stick it out?  A year and a half will fly by, right?

I’m not sure what I would do if I hadn’t started this blog.  My life pretty much would only be city planning, and I would crack. I never thought I would be one of those people that says how much blogging has changed their life, but I guess I am…

Sorry for the vent.  Today will be a better day.  The lovely fella will be here in a week!  Normal food bloggieness will continue tonight or tomorrow.

Thanks for reading (if you made it this far).

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15 thoughts on “Life

  1. Lauren at www.sailingtrainingwheels.blogspot.com says:

    OMG, Karla, I love you!
    Hang in there! You are in the zone!

    I can totally relate to the jaw clenching…etc. It will end eventually. I stopped clenching about 1 month after I finished my residency training. It takes time to break the stress habit.

    And, yes, blogging changes lives….!!!!!

    big bear hug, sista,
    Lauren

  2. Karin says:

    Awww dear! It’s so silly/pointless to say “hang in there” because I know exactly how you feel. I hope everything’s over soon!
    It’s good to hear that blogging is helping you though. 🙂
    Take care!

  3. ginamastrog says:

    Karla, I’m not even in grad school and I feel exactly what you’re going through. Some days, I wonder if my priorities are straight. You are making an awesome choice for yourself to further your education, and even though it might be really hard now and even though you might not get to talk to everyone as much as you’d like, the important thing is that you know that those people are still there for you. A year and a half, though it might not seem like it now, really will fly by, and then you’ll have so many more opportunities open to you in a career/field that you feel really passionate about.

    If you ever need to talk to a bloggie buddy outside of the Ithaca Collegetown bubble (though familiar with Collegetown Bagels 😉 ) I’m always here, shoot me an e-mail!

    Hang in there!

  4. Jenn (www.j3nn.net) says:

    Awww, we all have days (weeks, months, YEARS lol) like this. I know how you feel, I’m in upstate NY, too and the winters are long and boring when you don’t get to leave your area very often. Hang in there, a year and a half REALLY does go by quickly. It will all be worth it when it’s over, then you are free to do what you really want.

    Blogging is a wonderful outlet to network and vent, I’m glad you have yours, I love visiting it. I’m always just an email away, so hit me up whenever you want. We can vent together. 😀

    Jenn (I keep making the typo KENN instead of Jenn, does that make you laugh a little?) hehe

  5. Anna says:

    This sounds SO much like how I spent my last year of grad school– I promise, it will all be worth it when you have the degree!!! Take a deep breath, keep working at it– and feel free to vent on your blog! That’s what it’s hear for!

  6. kilax says:

    Oh gosh. That is what I felt like when I was in the architecture program, and I could see it last week in my sister, who is in interior design. Stick with it. Breathe. Take necessary breaks. It’s all worth it! I love my job more than I ever loved school. Not that I HATED school, but real life is so much easier!

  7. plamarie says:

    Ahh, that is a lot to handle. To be honest, I was a terrible student. You have come this far, so hang in there. The next year and a half will fly by. Blogging can be time consuming and rewarding; a good evil 🙂 Take it easy and do what is best for YOU! Have a good rest of the day!

  8. louisianagrown says:

    Yeesh, I’m sorry that grad school has been so tough on you, but after all this time I know you can stick it out for another year and a half. Maybe there will even come a day where you’re working your butt off on a job and you wish you could go back to the easiness of school. Who knows!

  9. Jessica@Healthy Exposures says:

    Aw, girl, I’m sorry you’re feeling the pressure! While I may not know you personally, I can tell you are such a strong person with an amazing heart and dedication – and let me just say, that all pays off in the long run. Soon you’ll be super successful and able to look back at the stressful times and just think “Hah! Beat ya!”. Until then, I know you can hang in there. I think a visit from your fella is just the right medicine, too 🙂

  10. Erin @ Big Girl Eats says:

    This time of year is the toughest, especially when we’re stuck in cold, gray, GROSS weather!! I’m feeling the winter blues this week too, and can totally relate. Things will seem brighter in no time and just think about the end result of being in your program/getting your master’s degree!

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