Right now, I am school.
My life is on hold so I can get a Master’s degree.
I live in a city county that revolves around the University. The only people I know are those in my department. The only place I go is campus. When I wake up in the morning, the first thought I have it what I have left to read.
I am a ball of stress.
Honestly, I’m getting tired of it.
I’m tired of having a sore jaw in the mornings from clenching all night. I’m tired of not having time to talk to my friends and family in California because I have to read. I’m tired of sitting on my butt, reading for hours on end and feeling like I’m still not doing enough.
Yesterday was a terrible day. Aside from the immense amount of work I had to do. I was frustrated with my program, and I was frustrated with myself. I’m tired of complaints. At this point, I just want to be done.
I’m not sure what needs to change. Do I need to just suck it up and stick it out? A year and a half will fly by, right?
I’m not sure what I would do if I hadn’t started this blog. My life pretty much would only be city planning, and I would crack. I never thought I would be one of those people that says how much blogging has changed their life, but I guess I am…
Sorry for the vent. Today will be a better day. The lovely fella will be here in a week! Normal food bloggieness will continue tonight or tomorrow.
Thanks for reading (if you made it this far).